SHOT GLASS!

I got this image from photobucket. A photo by Pingkun.

Jack Daniel's is one of my favorites. I remember Mr. Rex, a character from Charles Martin's novel "Wrapped in Rain." Mama Ella told Tucker "I think the screaming and hitting has a lot to do with your father's friendship with Mr. Daniels."

If Mr. Rex could only read what Mr. Daniels has posted to his website now. He would realize he has never been a friend of Mr. Daniels. Hahaha...

Mr. Daniels says "YOUR FRIENDS AT JACK DANIEL'S REMIND YOU TO DRINK RESPONSIBLY"

I am an alcoholic. I must admit. But i dont intend to be too intoxicated with alcoholic drinks whenever I drink with friends or at some parties. It's the enjoyment of having a good conversation while having some cups of liquor or bottles of beers. In the middle of the conversation you'll be unaware that the third cup is already drinking you. Yes, I've seen some people who've lost control of themselves whenever alcohol has exceeded what their blood could contain. But, they've seen me in some occassions too! Ahahahahaha... Laughs out loud!

Be a responsible drinker. Be a responsible friend. Be a responsible individual.

TONDALIGAN BEACH PARK

It was saturday afternoon. Just came from office again. Just had to chill down the beach together with a friend. Time for videoke and booze again.

Tondaligan Blue Beach! Lots of people come here to have good times with their families or friends. Along the beach are cottages that offer videoke, booze, toothsome food. During peak season the cottage rentals reach P800.00 but already include videoke rentals. The prices are negotiable. Haha. Or you can choose to rent cottage only and just do the usual fix of dropping P5.00 to the machine for each song. During off peak seasons or during rainy season cotttage rentals are only P100.00. The duration depends on your negotiation with the owner. And extension of time means additional payment. Again it depends on your negotiation with the owners. But! You could stay longer for free! You could also deal with the owners for unlimited videoke songs. The rate per hour varies.

All throughout summer people of Dagupan and tourists flock along the shorelines of Dagupan. It's only a 12-minute ride from city proper to Tondaligan Beach. You could also enjoy more seafood at fine dining restaurants alongside. Delicacies of Dagupan are served especially the famous Dagupan Bangus. You could have our own Siningang na Hipon, bangus or the usual Sinigang na Baboy. Restaurants also serve Seafood chopsuey, Nilasing na hipon, crabsticks, pinakbet and delicacies from diferrent places in the Philippines.

Also, you would be enjoying the Incalut ya Bangus or Incalut ya Pusit. "Incalut" means "Grilled". Bangus is served in many ways. Try and be addicted to Bangus Sisig, Bangus Kilawin, Chicharong Bangus, Bangus Belly Sinigang, Fried Boneless Bangus, Paksiw na Bangus, Bangus Relleno, Bangus Native and Skinless Longaniza, Embotidong Bangus, Bangus Patties, Sweet & Sour. I cant name them all. Actually, there are 101 ways to cook bangus. This is annually held during bangus festival.

Hey! I was talking about the booze and the beach! I suddenly got hungry! So if you have plans of family outings or even gimik with your barkadas! Come to the Dagupan!

GIMIK!

I've taken these photos from the viewdeck of Quatro here in Dagupan City. Just came from office that time. I wanted to relax after the laborious day like i always do. Just had a little chitchat with a friend about our own jobs while enjoying their famous macho mugs! I spend most of my nights outside with friends. Go to the bar or the beaches or along the streets specially Galvan Street. Yeah the PIGAR PIGAR. Sumptuous!

I enjoy my nightlife. I get to meet new people if not friends. I enjoy the conversations with my friends. Talk about what happened in the past few days or if some friends have contacted me or what's new or where's next?



It was almost 7pm when i took this picture of Arellano Street. People were rushing home after the days' work or maybe for shopping or leisure. Ok now! Mind my own business! Haha. Maybe in a few days i could post some pictures of Dagupan City. And of course of the popular grilled Dagupan Bangus. And maybe some locations where I chill out with friends or places where you would also enjoy the night and of course your visit in the city.

See? That's me... Still in uniform... Haha...

I enjoy drinking. With friends it's not getting drunk! It's enjoying life... Rock on!

WRAPPED IN RAIN

I was reading the novel last night and it reminded me of so many things. Charles Martin opened my eyes through his book. It was all about a family. A longing for a father who was so busy with getting richer and booze. From childhood to adulthood, Tuck never felt loved by his Dad but loved by Ms. Ella, his nanny and his Mother. Miss Ella was battered because of Rex's best friend Mr. Daniels went to his head. Rex also brought home another son named Mutt who suffered the same terror like Miss Ella and Tuck had with mean Rex. The brothers grew together. Had lots of adventure. Had lots of preachings from Miss Ella.

Reading the book I was lucky to have read some of the lines from the bible and how the characters provided each other with love, how Miss Ella disciplined the brothers, how they have obeyed Miss Ella, how they hated Rex, how Rex hit them all, how Miss Ella endured the strangles, punches, and blood that bubbled out her mouth and eyes, how she lost 8 teeth. Miss Ella could've died if Tuck didn't arrive earlier. The screamings, the blood, and terror and the death of Miss Ella from cancer changed their lives. Everything rumbled in Mutt's head. He rode the train from everywhere, back and forth and Tuck noticed the changes from Mutt. The smell, the actions. All of him became worse. The voices from his head echoed louder. The memory of them all. Mutt became schizoeffective, schizophrenic, and had bipolar disorder. Tuck busied himself with baseball and photography.

Tuck brought Mutt in Spiraling Oaks Mental Health Facility and left him without looking back for 7 or 8 years. Mutt escaped and was gone so Tuck came to Spiraling Oaks to find Mutt himself. And when he found him he brought Mutt home...

I guess you should read the book yourself. It would change how you see things.

I just remembered how I also craved for parental love. How I was deprived. How I grew alone. How i was abandoned. And how I was betrayed. And how I learned about life n my own.

"Life is a battle, but you can't fight it with your fists. You got to fight it with your heart."-- Miss Ella.

GILON GILON PHOTOS!

Here are some photos taken from Gilon Gilon. Taken on April 15, 2009. The Grand Opening of the Bangus Festival 2009 in Dagupan City. Yeah... There are more to come!

DAGUPAN BANGUS FESTIVAL SCHEDULE OF ACTIVITIES

April 15- GILON GILON ED BALEY Street Dancing Competition
Tunog Bangus Battle of the Bands

April 16- Dagupan Singing Bangus

April 17- Hataw Sayaw Hataw Dagupan
Pet Fashion Show

April 18- PIGAR PIGAR Festival
Hataw Sayaw Hataw Dagupan
Bangus Fest 4x4 Offroad Race
Bangus Fest SK Inter-Barangay Basketball Challenge

April 19- Bangus Fest 4x4 Offroad Race
Tunog Bangus Battle of the Bands
Dagupan Singing Bangus

April 20- Dagupan Singing Bangus

April 21- Bangus Festival Milo Summer Sports Clinic Caravan
Hataw Sayaw Hataw Dagupan

April 22- Bangus Fest Photo Exhibit
Bangus Festival Milo Summer Sports Clinic Caravan
Mayor Alipio F. Fernandez Jr. Bowling Cup
Tunog Bangus Battle of the Bands

April 23- BANGUS RODEO
Bangus Fest Photo Exhibit
Mayor Alipio F. Fernandez Jr. Bowling Cup
HALO HALO FESTIVAL Launching, games, competition
Tunog Bangus Battle of the Bands

April 24- Mayor Alipio F. Fernandez Jr. Bowling Cup
HALO HALO FESTIVAL
BANGUS FESTIVAL Cookfest
Hataw Sayaw Hataw Dagupan Finals

April 25- Lingkod Kapamilya
Pangkabuhayan
Mayor Alipio F. Fernandez Jr. Bowling Cup
Bangus Festival Invitational Shootfest
HALO HALO FESTIVAL
Dagupan Singing Bangus Finals

April 26- Mayor Alipio F. Fernandez Jr. Bowling Cup
Bangus Festival Invitational Shootfest
Tunog Bangus Battle of the Bands Finals

April 27- FESTIVALS OF THE NORTH Street Dancing Competition
Kapamilya Float vs. Kapuso Float
Bangus Fest Photography Competition

April 28- CSI SUMMER HOME FAIR
KAPUSO FIESTA (MALL SHOW)

April 29- CSI SUMMER HOME FAIR
KAPUSO CARES (Outreach Program)
Globe Day
April 30- CSI SUMMER HOME FAIR
BANGUSAN STREET PARTY- LUCAO
Splash in the Sky Fireworks Display

May 1- PISTA'Y DAYAT:
Fluvial Parade
Beach Volleyball
Mud Wrestling
Boxing
Bancarera
Tug of War
Beer Drinking Contest
DAGUPAN BODYFEST
BEACH PARTY w/ BROWNMAN REVIVAL
Fear FActor Saistig
Chippy Gimikada

Enjoy!

BOTTLE LINE

I had a little conversation with an old friend last night. Greeted each other and asked what life has brought us during these past years. We've talked of old friends who are hardly seen until now. I guess the last time i've seen some of them was in 1999. It's been a decade. He asked me if I knew Kabig but I couldn't remember anymore. Maybe if I could see a picture of him everything will flash black in my mind. My high school days was happy too though there were things i hated so much that i wished they didn't happen. But i dont regret any. They we're part of what moulded me into what I am now. Thanks to them anyway.

I asked him if he has lots of "kabarkada" there in Manila. He said he has lots along the neighboorhood. Then I said "Oo nga pal! Mabarkada ka!"

He said "Nasa pakikisama lang yan!"

That's true. You can never really have a better companionship if you dont know how to get along with people. That friend of mine was once a freak. Maybe until now. But I see the changes. More responsible and sensible. I remembered when we had booze along the river in our town. Together with some friends we lit bonfires and enjoyed the moments. We were all young, adventurous. He is good now. He has a family now. And has his first daughter that looked like much of him. Hahahahaha. I'm sure that baby rocks too just like his dad.

Then he threw the question back at me.

"Oo. Marami rin. Kaya lang yung iba nagtitext lang kapag gustong uminom!"

"Di sila barkada! Gusto lang tumikim ng alak mga yun!"

He shook me. Of course I know It was the only purpose. And i was a fool that i still accomodate some of the "kabarkadas" in my house. I am having fun though. At least I was just being "a nice guy" not a "boy next door". Hahahaha. Silly! Thanks Pilas! Adik ka talaga!

It's true that I don't see real friendship with them. But I cannot be used. After all, it's always in my hand if I may allow to drink with them again. I am having fun with the booze and the short stupid stories. Not with their "barkada." I just have to live with it. At least I haven't given them my confidence and trust.

Thanks to my real friends and real people! Inuman na!

AT THE HORIZON

I was looking at the horizon.
Darkness fell.
The people I've hoped for were nowhere to be seen.
I sat on the edge of this world,
And then I looked up.
There it was,
A guiding light.
So I stood.
Realized that they didn't walk with me to find a better way,
But only to mislead me.
I went on.
Thankful...

IN A LITTLE WHILE

It was late at night. There was a man down the beach. He sat on the sand. The ocean was calm. The sky was clear. Everything was almost still.

He was exhausted. Just wanted to get over the busy life. He felt the cold sand beneath his feet. Relaxed and comforted by the moonlight and the soft breeze. Nobody was there. He needed this big space to breathe and to figure things out. His mind sailed away on to the ocean. Its been long... And it has been miles of sailing... The shore still seemed way too far. It would still be a long voyage. It was rough. He was caught in a storm. He knew there are more to come.

He was alone. Off the coast he was unaccompanied. He was a boy. Young and abandoned. It was long ago since he craved for attention... For guidance... He was like begging for love... He remembered his mom... When she carried him in her arms... Wrapped with warmth of love.. He was protected... As he opened his eyes and finally seen the world... There were saline drops... From his mom... She let go of him... Settled him on the ground... He was innocent... He just smiled... Mom on her knees and kissed her boy goodbye...

He was innocent of the world... Mom went away... There was dad... He went to his father. Looked up at him. Face saddened. He needed the comfort. He needed a home. At that very moment, tears fell from him... From the heart... He was a son... He was supposed to be in a family...

The house wasn't comfortable for him to dwell on.. He stayed outside but near the house... Through the windows he'd seen them... They were happy... He longed for the house that was once his home... The boy was about to leave... He will miss everything there... And everyone... Then he looked back... He was there... Dad was smiling at him... The boy was filled with joy... The smile showed love... Then dad turned on his back and walked away... The smile showed care. It meant love. But it also said "Bon Voyage"...

He closed his eyes and tears fell down on the sand. In a little while, he was away from harm... In a little while, he cried his heart out... In a little while, he realized he was still sailing.. And he has gone far.. And he was glad... He looked up the sky... Wished like every other man does... He hoped... He prayed... He stood... And went away... He was sure he won't be alone anymore...

THE COPS AND THE CARNAPPERS

I've seen the news last night. And it really was inhuman. I've seen a lot of these incidents on TV. Questions were asked like was it a rub out or shoot out? Just like last night. I've seen it on TV. The suspects were already captured and gunned down inside the car they have stolen. But what's irritating and disturbing is that when the police authorities came closer and inspected the car. The wounded suspects are obviously incapable of escaping or even shoot their guns at the policemen.

As seen on TV Patrol, one of the policemen pulled a wounded suspect out and shut him again and gunned again the other suspects inside the car. The QCPD said they will not cover up for their cops. Investigation and fact finding teams were set to be organized. I really hope these authorities would really conduct their investigation without bias and truth and justice would prevail. The Commission on Human Rights and national Police Commission have watched the Video from ABS CBN. Even these departments were alarmed about the the incidents they were seeing. It's obvious that these policement have abused their power.

They might be the suspects. They might have criminal liabilities. But they weren't animals. Their bodies were full of bullets. The policemen should have brought the wounded suspects to the hospital to even save their lives. And if the policemen's concern is not the lives of these suspects they should have saved the lives of these carnappers for proper execution of the law and interrogation. How would they trace the other suspects who have escaped the fangs of these evil policemen? It is clear that they are not cognizant of the law. Ignorantia Legis Non Excusat. They are clearly liable not only to the law but to the families of the suspects turned victims of police brutality.

LAST NIGHT

i was sitting outside the house last night looking at the dark sky. i
remembered the days i dreamed. sitting alone. memories came to my mind. i did
the very best i can to make them real.i succeeded. i failed. but no matter what
happens these lines would always be in my mind "if the end brings me out right,
whatever is said against me would amount to nothing. if the end brings me out
wrong, ten angels swearing i was right would make no difference." those lines
came from an american president. i used to look at the sky every night when i
was younger. when i was young. waiting for the shooting stars to pass by. i have
seen many. some were bright and some were not. i have also seen this brightest
shooting star. that was when i was sitting on our roof top. it made me happy and
made me wish. that was extraordinary for me.i really dont make wishes on
shooting stars. but it made me wish. just last night night, sitting outside the
house, on to the garden, i looked at the sky but there were no stars. clouds
filled up the night. there were no shooting stars. instead, the rain fell…..
and my tears… they fell together…. when i was younger… when i was young…
i was faint… and i grew brighter… out of the blue i fell down… fading…
my energy was about to be emptied… but then somebody shook me… in my
heart… He said "Im still here for you son… though your dad and mom is
gone… buried six feet under ground… Im still here.. for you My son…" Thank
God. I will never be empty…

SMILE EMPTY SOUL

A man travelled alone

Someone without a home

He went astray looking for one

A place that is safe and warm.

Unprotected and unloved along the way

Everyday was the same old day

Silent tears always drift down

He almost fell to the ground

Bullied by evil, unsafe from harm

So helpless, he was almost drowned

How pathetic this life can be

For a man who just wanted to be happy.

Lonesome moments and darknights

Seemed to be haunting his life

A life that’s full of hopes and fears

Brought him a bit of joy and full of tears

Nobody helped and understood him

For the only thing he’d been hoping

A simple life that’s so serene

A tired soul has been needing

He’d been turned around and left behind

Tattered heart and puzzled mind

Promises were broken, happiness was stolen

Poor man had nothing and was forsaken.

Instead of crying he gave up his smile

Strengthened himself and asked God why

He talked to God like father and son

Asked for his love, blessing and guidance.

What you’ve done was right weird person

You’ve just found your wy back home

God’s there! Just play yoru role!

Take good care, smile empty soul.

THEY TALK ABOUT ME!

As I walk they notice me. I feel their eyes directed towards me. It seems uncomfortable. Maybe it’s odd. The atmosphere isn’t safe I guess. As I turn my head they all smile. But almost almost all of them are fake. I smile back at them but frowning inside.

They talk behind my back. They are like daggers hitting my spine or blades attacking behind me. I wont be bothered. They cant intimidate me. I have met their kind.

As I talk they hear me. And I have sense of humor. They giggle. And As I turn my back they hiss like snakes. Moving towards me. Ready to attack me with their fangs and poisons. But I have brought with me lots of antidotes. I sure have one for each bite. And thank you for laughing with me. Im still laughing at you now.

You think Im weak and you are strong. Im sorry to say you are hollow inside and I am solid. Im better than you. I am stronger. I have more power. I guess you need proofs. The proofs are your insecurities. They are slowly burning you from the inside. You are hollow. I am solid. I am metal. You are plastic.

Look at the mirror poor ones. You think you dress like kings or queens. But see how you look. You are even worse than a beggar. Surely the beggar obviously need to be dressed. Unlike you. You wear clothes that dont suit you. You act like geniuses and prominents. Look at the mirror again. You are barbarric, moron, and immoral.

I am not harsh. It is who you are. Dont talk about others’ lives. You barely know them. They might know more about you. You look at yourselves like angels but you dont notice you have filthier smell. Sordid. Pathetic.

I dont talk about your lives. I talk about me. Kindly have the decency to avoid talking behind my back. Talk about yourselves. About your own kind. I dont wanna talk about you. I dont care who you are and what you do. Thanks anyway. I am popular.

MAMANG DRIVER!

It was a pleasant sunday afternoon and everything seemed so cool. I got my room cleaned. Undusted evrything in my room. Organized everything in my closet. Planned to enjoy the rest of the day out side with a friend!

Sumakay ako sa jeep. Sa Harap. Medyo puno ng passengers. And the driver’s friend in the passenger seat didn’t really remove his arm. So it was like wrapping his arm on my shoulders. And I got really irritated. I have noticed these two girls also. Both of them aged 13 to 14 years old. They were like flirting with the driver and his friend and at first i didn’t mind it.

A few blocks away the passengers unloaded the technocolor puj. The two girls were left. I looked into the mirror and had a peek at the two. Both dark-skinned. One with straight hair and the other one with curly crown! They look so young but so experienced…. Their conversation went on….

The driver asked “masarap ba yan?”. And the girl didn’t really care and answerd “Siyempre… Makipot pa to!”… I frowned inside… I didn’t want the driver’s stupid friend notice i was irritated. The girls really knew what to say. And these s*nofab*tches kept on laughing.

Along the way was a motel and the lunatic man beside me looked at the girls and asked “gusto nyo diyan?”

“Kahit saan! Magsasarap naman tayo eh..” The two girls got excited as if wetting. Or they really were. Poor little girls… Their conversation went on. And the two devils were still grinning…

“Yan ang mga gusto ko! Mga edad katorse” The pitb*llsh*t said.

“Pahipo nga..” the driver requested as he was actually reaching for the neareswt girl’s vulva! And that really got my face red and I was trembling with anger… I was about to stop the jeepney but the girls answer astonished me…

“Mamaya na… Namamasa na nga eh… Matitikman mo din naman…” the girl replied…

“Naiiy*t ako tuloy!” The driver’s more evil friend told her… They giggled as if sin never existed…

I stopped the jeepney… frowned at the two girls and stepped out… What a shame… I didn’t think that some children of their age can flirt as dirty as the hookers… I pity the driver and his friend. I hope this two pathetic individuals would realize the words that come out their contaminated mouths and think of their families. I felt I was in hell inside the jeepney. Their laughters intimidated me. The words echoed in my ears. I would have understood if they were some hookers because they are really in the dirty flesh trade. But they were so young… They were being abused… I hope their parents know well how their children are being treated by some irresponsible individuals… haaaay… buhay… Life’s a constant change…. Pero sana change for good naman…. Sana naman maawa naman sila sa mga bata…

Nasira tuloy araw ko… Kakairita….